i hate how you make everything my fault. i hate how you say how much you care, but you don't show it. i hate how you still talk to your exs. i hate how they talk mad shit about me but i can't say anything. i hate how much i want to call you right now, but i can't because you told me not too. i hate how i can never do anything right. i hate how you say i'm such a bad person, but don't give up on me. i hate how we can't see each other. i hate how you have a car. i hate how you think you are so much smarter than me. i hate how you make fun of me. i hate how you are never nice to me. i hate how you don't tell me what i do to make you upset, so i can't change it. i hate how jealous i get. i hate how i just keep typing this so i don't call you and get in trouble. i hate how you never tell me you love me anymore. i hate how i think that you don't want me anymore. i hate how i can't meet your mom. i hate how i can't see us together in the future anymore. i hate how i feel that there is nothing between us anymore. i hate how i lost my virginity to you & it seems like it's nothing to you. i hate how you don't care if you loose me or not. i hate how you CAN go a day without talking to me. i hate how you don't think about me. i hate how i know if we break up, you have back up girls that would take you in a heartbeat. i hate how i cry day after day. i hate how you tell me i'm not your mom when i ask you where you are. i hate how you tell me i'm raising my voice when i know i'm not. i hate how you tell me i have an attitude, when i know i don't. i hate how you make me feel like i'm the worst person on earth. i hate how you make me feel like if i wasn't here, life would be better for everyone. i hate how i can't leave you becuase you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

i love when you call me beautiful. i love it when you tell me you love me. i love it when you tell me you miss me. i love when we're together & you take it slow. i love how you still make my stomach have butterflies after 2 months. i love when you buy me stuff & not complain about money. i love when you talk to your friends about me. i love when we're laying together and you play with my hair. i love when you kiss me & talk to me about your dad. i love how much you do for me. i love how you got me addicted to bleach. :] i love how i can be myself around you. i love how you laugh at my stupid jokes. i love when we're in your car and you sing p!atd and you laugh at me when you see me mouthing the words. i love how you make me feel like the best thing ever when we're together. i love when you call my phone. i love when you just lay there and stare at me. i love your eyes, your smile, your lips. i love when you tell me about your day. i love how you make me get up at 7 oclock in the morning, so you can spend all day with me. i love when you kiss me at red lights. i love when you hold my hand in public. i love how you can bring me around your friends. i love how you never leave my mind. i love how when someone calls my phone, i hope it's you. i love when as soon as i get online, i look to see if you're on. i love how i can call you mine. i love when you hold me in your arms. i love when you take control. i love how you can bring out the real me, that nobody else has saw before.

i lote you.